Right Atruim

As Karina once said,

"We are Pavlov's dogs."

Supremacy

At the conclusion of this morning's workout, I was left in a crumpled pile of limbs on the floor. Breathing hard, I felt the steam as it rose from my body and evaporated into the ether. Staring at the ground, I felt the sweat run freely from the top of my head down my arms and legs, like a pit of liquid snakes slithering across my skin. I watched in silence as they pooled into a puddle on the floor; I swear I could hear them hissing as they evaporated into the aforementioned ether. 

In pain there is poetry. At least, that is what I keep telling myself.

- June 15, 2021

Vagrant

"If your life has been reduced to begging for spare change from strangers on the street, somewhere along the line you failed as a human. Now step back before I break my fist on your face."

By the time I throw the first punch I've already killed you in my mind.

Hatred & Progression

"Remember this hatred, this animosity towards those who willfully revel in their self-centered ignorance and grandeur, and use it to push yourself forever onward to ever greater heights."

The money doesn't care about the means.

Some days just aren't worth this kind of trouble.

Progression & Momentum

If you allow it, the universe will conspire against you until you die.

Fail if you're going to fail and be done with it. 

The universe will not care one way or the other.

In Hindsight: Table of Contents

Krystal: Young, unrequited love.

Kandice: I really did want to kill myself.

Delilah: My first (worst) mistake was believing you cared.

Christie: You deserved better . . . but then again, so did I.

Angela: For a long time you were the worst mistake I ever made.

Nicole: I wish I had met you five years before.

Karina: You were a lesson in letting my guard down.

Virginia: We should have put an end to it at the start.

Patricia: Our love was only as real as the lies we chose to confess.

Lyndee: I needed an out.